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have no mood to do anything today.. skip class again,.
what am i going to do with myself lately? i'm skipping the classes likes it's nothing important for me.. i've becoming worse than the last semester..
usually i'm not like this, it's hard for me to skip the class without any reason.. but like people always say, when u start to do something bad and having no bad consequences after doing it, then u will do it again.. so, it will became ur habits,. n u know what..? bad habits are hard to stop..
the class on the evening today, feel like skipping it again.. ;p
hope i came to my sense before it's not too late..

*p/s: rase cam nk demam pn ade ni..

~main masak-masak~

urm,. pe aktiviti korang cuti ni..?
asah bakat tdo, main game, jalan-jalan makan angin, or jadi surirumah berwawasan..? :)
okeyh, tu lah sume keje yg aku wt cuti ni,. lagi 2 minggu dh nk buka semester baru.. berat hati nk buka sem ni.. mau cuti selama nyer.. hihi..

okeyh, aku nk cite pasal masak. korang sume terer masak tak..? x kira la laki ke pompuan, at least korang msti tau gak cane nk masak air or megi kan.. aku plak dlm kategori sederhana bab-bab masak ni,, asal org yg makan makanan yg aku masak x mati sb keracunan makanan pn kire okay la tu.. :D

tuk kaum hawa, skill memasak ni penting tuk future.. ehem ehem,. bukan tuk suami je lah, tuk diri sendiri jugak.. so, time cuti gni la mase tuk mengasah bakat memasak korang,. ade 2 minggu b4 buka sem ni, praktis la byk2 ek.. aku skang ni pn main masak-masak tiap hari sb jawatan ku time cuti ni sbgai bibik yg x bertauliah.. :P

okeyh, video ni dari Super Junior H - Cooking Cooking.. dlm mv ni, lirik die cite pasal girlfriend die yg cantik tp x pandai masak.. enjoy!



*p/s: nk blaja buat pizza la.. :)

~Alone~

Do you like being alone..? Maybe some people prefers to be alone and some are not.. it's depends on the situation actually,. for me, i like to spend time alone, well... not exactly alone but together with my mp3 player..

yesterday, i went to The Mines with my cousin, but since she's meeting her friend, so i decided to enjoy myself alone.. :) Aren't you happy when you are alone at such place..? there's so many things that u can do,. so, firstly i watched movie,. i don't have any movie that i want to watch since The Tourist and Rango haven't come out yet.. then, just take any movie ticket that are available, and the winner is Ngangkung.. hehe.. i know, it's kind of late to watch this movie,.

this movie genre is comedy and horror.. i planned to laugh when watching this movie but u know what? i can't.. the girl beside me close her eyes and face with her handbag, and she seems really scared of that movie,. i know, the ghost in that movie is quite scary, but the situation is hilarious.. a scary looking ghost posing like a model outside of your car.. that's why the uncle behind me laughed really hard,. try imagine, looking at the girl beside you who are so scared combine with listening to that uncle's laugh, i don't know whether to be scared or laugh.. haishh, when i think back of that time, i should have just focus on that movie rite..?

after the confused movie, i eat takoyaki,. never tried it before and not gonna eat it in the future.. :P it's not that takoyaki is not tasty, but it's just me that don't like the taste.. next stop, bowling,. n after that, i went to eat sizzling,. done! An episode of "A day with Ana".. hehe,.

When i'm at Langkawi, since we are tired from the trip to the nearest island at Langkawi, we decided to just rest during the night,. but then, i feel really bored, so i went out alone.. hehe,. i went to Langkawi Parade just a few blocks from the hotel.. it's fun to go out alone at night, and in the stranger town.. u can explore everything around you without no one to tell u what to do and so on.. am i weird..?

well then, that's all for now,. actually there's a lot more episode of "A day with Ana" but i can't tell u all of it.. babai ;P

*p/s: if anyone wants to accompany me next time, it's my pleasure.. :)

butterfly in my stomach..

hurm,,..it's hard for me to open my heart to anyone..that's include towards my girlfriends or boyfriends, it bcoz for me trusting someone is really a hard thing to do..
urm, it is bcoz i had bad experience with trust? i'm not sure why..

at first, i hate writing, but now when i started to open my heart to it, i loved it..it is the same with people..? it is as simple as i opened up my heart to writing..?

peoples; it's hard to predicts their true feeling, n it can be complicated sometimes..i hate complicated things, but that doesn't mean i hate people,. that's why i always avoid complicated things..i know it's not a good thing to do, always avoiding something you don't like coz one day whether u like it or not u will have to face it..

now, i start to learn to open up to people around me..better late than never rite..?
but sometimes there are times i still prefer to live in the world where there's only me live inside it..

and after i open my heart to 'people', there's a butterfly in my stomach..i don't know what to do,,.
plezz la,,just go away butterfly..go playing in other person's stomach..shuuu,,shuuu...i hate it when i have feeling like this..hurm..,.

...

i'm not a perfect person..sy byk kekurangan..jgn expect lebih dr sy..u will just feel dissapointed later..

*p/s: slmt ari rayer..nk mintak maaf kalo ade slah silap..okies?

giving up..

even if u give up,,life will still goes on. without u realizing it, u will be left behind. so, don't stop going n moving on, cause life will not wait for u..but u can take a rest for once a while, when u feel like u really tired n really really needed the rest, then it's okay for u to take a break cause it will make u feel more energize after that n can make u see things more clearly.. i supposed i reaallyyy need a rest now..! can't wait for the holiday next week..one more week to go dear.. :-)

my dear friends,,have u ever thought about quitting your study? i have..not once or twice..so many time till i lost count..everyday i'm thinking of quitting my studies..but i don't even dare to take another step further, cause i know my parents will be very disappointed with me n i hate it when i let them down. so, i need to struggle n the most important thing is don't give up..!
i've read a poem, n it's inspired me to just don't give up..here's the poem n i hope it can make u feel different after reading it..

Don't Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

- Edgar A. Guest

love...?

do u believe in true love...? i'm not sure bout it..maybe bcoz i haven't fall in love with someone or maybe true love doesn't even exist!..i do like someone before,,but i don't think that it is love..

then,,what about love at first sight..? how can u love someone just by looking at her/his eyes..or u can say by just looking at the outer appearance only..hurm...i'm not sure bout it either..

and,,what do u think about soulmates? is there such person that u can call ur soul mate..how do u describe or know that a certain person is ur soulmate? hurm..i'm not sure bout this too..

maybe i'm being too rational bout this..i always think bout these kind of thing thoroughly before getting involved in this, coz once u r already been affected with this thing,,u will become "unstable"..i think..hehe...
*love is like quicksand…the further u fall in, the harder it is to get out!!!

what i'm sure of is those 3 above never happen to me..if they are really exist,..i wish to have all three of them..hehe..it is too greedy to wish for something like that..? love at first sight can be quite difficult though..

well..when u love someone,,u can be childish but cute..emotional unstable sometimes to the limit where u want to kill uself (hope this never happen to me)..

so,,what message actually i want to deliver here...? hurm...

I'M JUST BORED!!!...hahah...

*p/s: latihan tuk report writing bel..hehe..

:(

I know u hate me,
By the way u whispers around me…
I know u hate me,
By the way u talks to me...
I know u hate me,
By the way u acts in front of me...
I know u hate me,
By the way u looks at me...
I know u hate me,
By the way u always ignored me…
I know u hate me,
By the way u always leaves me behind…
I know u hate me,
By the way u feels uncomfortable being with me…
I know u hate me,
Just when I look into your eyes…
Even though u never told me directly,
I still know that u hate me…

And I’m sorry, I’m just can’t do anything about that,
Eventually, I’ll just walk away from u…
Try to avoid from meeting your eyes,
Avoid from appear in front of u…
In order to make your eyes feel fresh just by not looking at my face,
In order to make your ears feel good just by not listening to my voice…
In order to make you stop pretending that u like me when u’re not,
Coz I know that u hate it when u have to pretend…
In order to make u feel better in any way,
And in order to make your life much better…
I wish I could just disappear from this world,
I really wish I could do that… but I can’t…
So, once again…
I’m sorry…

it's good when u feel down..

when u feel down,,or when u feel tension..when u need someone to comfort u..
when u feel tired of this world..when u feel like u don't belong in that places..
when u feel like everyone around u doesn't like u...when u feel like nobody loves u..
when u lost strength in what u do..
just listen to this song,,hope it'll cheer u up.. u will like the way u r..coz that's u rite?

Joey Mcintyre - Stay The Same

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly

Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
cause there's nothing 'bout you I will change

I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid
If you've got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way

[repeat chorus]

Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you found
will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
You'll make it through..ohhh...yeah..

[repeat chorus]

No there nothing 'bout you I will change [x2]
Don't change..

p/s: Hope u enjoy listen to this song..hope it will brighten ur day..

“Assalamualaikum puan..”

Am I that old to be called ‘puan’?

I’m doing my practical training in JPN Kelantan which is Jabatan Pelajaran Negeri Kelantan. My office is in the same building with SK Padang Garong, so I will eventually meet with the student of the school everyday during the day. Every time I met them, they will say “Assalamualaikum cikgu” or “Assalamualaikum kak” and I feel really proud bout it, but today one of the students says “Assalamualaikum puan”.

Am I that old to be called that way?

Or did the practical training have made me aging and look matured?

Or am I look like I am already married?

Back when I was a little girl, I dream to be a teacher. But as time goes by, I start to realize that I’m interested in doing something else rather than be a teacher. Do you think that I’m suitable to be a teacher? Hahaha... Or am I able to teach well? Or can I really be a teacher?

Hahaha…but then it was kind of funny to be called ‘puan’ by someone.