my first niece.. :)

On 1st December 2010 (Wednesday), my brother and sis in law got a new baby girl.. this is their second child.. at last, there is a baby girl in my family.. huhu.. so, this is her picture.. cute kan? :P

my brother plans to named her Nur Tasnim Humaira.. but i really like girl name Husna.. hurmm,.. just agree with my bro cause she is his daughter rite. :)

so, that Wednesday morning, my sis, my mom, n I went to Paka, Terengganu to visit my sis in law,. on the way to the place, we stop by at Teluk Gadong to eat 'nasi kukus' at one of the restaurant there (restaurant ke...?).. the shop located in front of the UiTM Dungun college and face the beach.. it's really refreshing to eat at such place.. while looking at the beautiful beach,. :)

UiTM Dungun college really is in front of the beach.. i bet they go to the beach everyday..

*p/s: in UiTM Shah Alam, we have waterfall at the main gate entrance.. :P

butterfly in my stomach..

hurm,,..it's hard for me to open my heart to anyone..that's include towards my girlfriends or boyfriends, it bcoz for me trusting someone is really a hard thing to do..
urm, it is bcoz i had bad experience with trust? i'm not sure why..

at first, i hate writing, but now when i started to open my heart to it, i loved it..it is the same with people..? it is as simple as i opened up my heart to writing..?

peoples; it's hard to predicts their true feeling, n it can be complicated sometimes..i hate complicated things, but that doesn't mean i hate people,. that's why i always avoid complicated things..i know it's not a good thing to do, always avoiding something you don't like coz one day whether u like it or not u will have to face it..

now, i start to learn to open up to people around me..better late than never rite..?
but sometimes there are times i still prefer to live in the world where there's only me live inside it..

and after i open my heart to 'people', there's a butterfly in my stomach..i don't know what to do,,.
plezz la,,just go away butterfly..go playing in other person's stomach..shuuu,,shuuu...i hate it when i have feeling like this..hurm..,.

frustrated..

i'm really FRUSTRATED with myself now,,..i wish i have the undo button...

:(

I know u hate me,
By the way u whispers around me…
I know u hate me,
By the way u talks to me...
I know u hate me,
By the way u acts in front of me...
I know u hate me,
By the way u looks at me...
I know u hate me,
By the way u always ignored me…
I know u hate me,
By the way u always leaves me behind…
I know u hate me,
By the way u feels uncomfortable being with me…
I know u hate me,
Just when I look into your eyes…
Even though u never told me directly,
I still know that u hate me…

And I’m sorry, I’m just can’t do anything about that,
Eventually, I’ll just walk away from u…
Try to avoid from meeting your eyes,
Avoid from appear in front of u…
In order to make your eyes feel fresh just by not looking at my face,
In order to make your ears feel good just by not listening to my voice…
In order to make you stop pretending that u like me when u’re not,
Coz I know that u hate it when u have to pretend…
In order to make u feel better in any way,
And in order to make your life much better…
I wish I could just disappear from this world,
I really wish I could do that… but I can’t…
So, once again…
I’m sorry…

i'm thinking....

hai..hehe...
post pendek je ni..urm, I've been accepted to further my study for the degree next year..actually it's two weeks from now..huhu...i'm soooo nervous when thinking of this..

degree details are as follows: <----------------------skema kan? ;D CS226 Information System Engineering
UiTM Shah Alam
College: Not provided..

hurm,..skang ni tgh cr sponsor tuk dgree..tp xde yg open..dalam bulan 4 n 5 tahun dpn br ade bka tuk permohonan bru..kena mintak sponsor pa@ma dlu la,..huhu..
truthfully,,dh xnak stadi,,..but because of my father said, "while u still can, it's better for u to study..".. i'm thinking of working..to earn my own money, so that I don't have to depends on my parents anymore..to help them, not them helping me..
hope dpt sponsorship,, xyah pinjam ptptn..huhu..no pin pn xbli lg ni..pe2 pn,,gd luck 4 ur dgree!!

yeaa!! fuhh... hurm...

yeaa~~!!! praktikal da abis,. automatik nyer,abis la jgk diploma ku..hepi la..
dah tua br abis diploma..haha..
tp syukur la,,.dlu aku da x mau study,nk keje..
tetibe je terbuka pintu hati tuk smbg blaja..apply uitm 2nd intake ni..
tup2,,da abis diplma 3 tahun..huhu..skejap je rase..

fuhhh....lega tul x kena represent sistem..sume lpas walau pun sistem agak kurang best..
report sume dh setel, ni br lpas pos laju report kt puan ina..huhu...slesai sudah sume yg berkaitan ngan praktikal..yeaaa...

hurm,,..bulan lpas is my besday..waa..umur dah makin meningkat remaja (remaja la sgt..haha)..
i'm still single,,i wonder when it's going to be my 1st relationship..huhu..dr dlu smpai skang,status single je..haha...why am i still single? 1. i'm not ready,... 2. i dont know the right way to love someone,so i'm quite scared of it,.. 3. i love someone n he doesn't love me back or otherwise,.. 4. i'm hepi being single,,.. 5. tgu kak muna couple dlu,,...hihihi...
yg plg sure no 5 la..haha..

hurm,...skang ni tgh tgu reslt dgree kuar..i'm still thinking wether i wat to further mt study or not..huhu..sambung rase nyer..pakse rela..anyway, gd luck to me,,.hope dpt dgree yg di sukai..hehe..

it's good when u feel down..

when u feel down,,or when u feel tension..when u need someone to comfort u..
when u feel tired of this world..when u feel like u don't belong in that places..
when u feel like everyone around u doesn't like u...when u feel like nobody loves u..
when u lost strength in what u do..
just listen to this song,,hope it'll cheer u up.. u will like the way u r..coz that's u rite?

Joey Mcintyre - Stay The Same

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly

Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
cause there's nothing 'bout you I will change

I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid
If you've got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way

[repeat chorus]

Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you found
will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
You'll make it through..ohhh...yeah..

[repeat chorus]

No there nothing 'bout you I will change [x2]
Don't change..

p/s: Hope u enjoy listen to this song..hope it will brighten ur day..

bebelanku...

da lame x update blog ni..how r u? i'm kind of miss u la..hehe
a lot of things happened for this past few month..

1st..
puasa la..hehe..puasa tahun ni best sb dpt bka puasa penuh kt umah..huhu..
dah lame x bka puasa penuh kt umah,,more than 4 years i think..

2nd...
rayer...juga amat2 best sb dpt jumpe member lame yg dh lost contact for 6 years...
sume muka dh lain,,n dh tgi2..haha..aku je yg x tgi2 jgk... memg best la jmpe korang..
igt blek kenangan zaman muda dlu..n dh ramai kawan2 kite yg dh kawen..
aku still single cam dlu,,uwaa..

3rd..
lpas rayer g dner dkan at jengka...
miss jengka so much la...dpr jumpe sume dak2 ni n celebrate my besday there..
wlaupun ade a few yg x sempat jumpe,,it's been a joyful trip..huhu
jengka dh byk brubah,,uitm sbnrnyer yg brubah..dh ade susur gajah br khas tuk kilah..wawawa..
memg byk la perubahan die,bgunan sdg dibina pn byk gak..a new library,swimming pool (ni yg best nyer), girl's college, academic buildings n so on..

4th...
diner dkan...this semester x best cam semester2 lpas...
i'm quite dissapointed with it..haha...
pyer la bosan diner mlm tu..berterabur je..makan brebut,,seat pn kena brebut jgk..aku sempat terlelap time adun jengka bg ucap tama die..huhu
tp cndremata sem ni quite cumil la..hehe..

5th...
praktikal yg dh smpai ujung nyer...
ari ni 2nd last day at this ofis..huhu..excited nk abis praktikal sb nk focus wat sistem n report..
smalam lect penyelia dtg,,n die sguh baik hati..
die komen sistem aku..
kena tukar interface,,wat access level login,,
my erd,diagram O, n contect diagram totally wrong..ahahha..aku pn xtau pe yg aku wat..
n a lot more..
so,,i've decided to make a new system..
smpat ke? harap2 smpt la..
kalu x smpt,aku present je gne sistem yg dh ade skang ni..
agak tekanan jgk sbnrnyer ni..report pn byk lg x complete..br dk introduction to organization..
harap2 sempat la siap sume sistem n report on time..

so,,that's all for now..see u again blog ku syg...

"terima kasih.."

susah ke nk ungkapkan kata2 tu lpas org tlg kite wat something?
kt tempat praktikal aku ade sorang pegawai yg slalu suh aku wat bykkk keje...
ade yg munasabah,ade gak yg agak kurang munasabah..

the story begin when he got a phone call from unit akaun and they told him to take a few documents at that place. so.,die pn suh la aku g ambik kt unit akaun yg 3,4 blok jauh nyer dr blok aku. da la unit aku ni kat tingkat 4, bulan puasa and i'm fasting, i'm a girl, i dont even know the way to the unit akaun, n most important is that it is not my job to get the documents..

2,3 org pegawai lain suh die tepon office boy di unit aku, sb diorang x nak susah kan aku..but he refused, die nk gak duh aku g..so aku pn pegi la..reluctantly,but i successfully went there and came back...
sampai je kt unit aku, aku bagi la dokumen tu kt die..die selamber nyer x ucap terima kasih kt aku..i'm not gagging for it, but it is nice to hear someone thanks to you after you have done something and it makes you feel that he appreciates your help...

nasib baek la ari ni puasa,,kena byk sabar,,so,aku sabar je la...nti kurang plak pahala puasa aku kan? hehehe...ok,da ade org suh wat keje..saje nk membebel kt sini sb kalo membebel kat pejabat nti ade org trase...hehehe..best gak ade blog ni kan? (*_^)

“Assalamualaikum puan..”

Am I that old to be called ‘puan’?

I’m doing my practical training in JPN Kelantan which is Jabatan Pelajaran Negeri Kelantan. My office is in the same building with SK Padang Garong, so I will eventually meet with the student of the school everyday during the day. Every time I met them, they will say “Assalamualaikum cikgu” or “Assalamualaikum kak” and I feel really proud bout it, but today one of the students says “Assalamualaikum puan”.

Am I that old to be called that way?

Or did the practical training have made me aging and look matured?

Or am I look like I am already married?

Back when I was a little girl, I dream to be a teacher. But as time goes by, I start to realize that I’m interested in doing something else rather than be a teacher. Do you think that I’m suitable to be a teacher? Hahaha... Or am I able to teach well? Or can I really be a teacher?

Hahaha…but then it was kind of funny to be called ‘puan’ by someone.